omaigod..pelizzzz

no one asked me..what do i want?...
no one asked me...what do i think?...
no one asked me...what do i feel?...

yet they told me that i dont understand them??...dont know what they felt??

seriously????? gimme a break...

merapu meraban

It's been awhile since the last update...nothing interesting to write ...well actually makan vitamin M banyak sangat...jadi malas nk update citer2 yg tak memberansangkan..

Well..let see..what u guys miss...
1) m dating someone
huhuhuh ofcos la tak betul....only in my dreams jer la kan...

2) m getting married
hahahaha not in list pun lagi...

3) m getting a very good pay
oomaigod..hw i wish it is true...my mum says...every company tht i worked have same problem hahahha..susah betul kan diorang nk byr gaji i...nk kata gaji taraf Steve job tu jauh panggang dari api..gaji lebih rendah dari Steve Job nyer cleaner kot...

hahahaha betul x..nothing interesting.all of the above ...satu pun yang boleh dibangangkan dibanggakan...


hhaaargggghhhh so saaadddddddd kann....

if that so...y u didn't tell me???

Dik, aku pinta kau akan s’lalu setia
Dik, aku mohon kau s’lalu menemani
Saat ku tengah terluka
Kala ku tengah gundah

Reff:

Ku akan menjagamu
Di bangun dan tidurmu
Di semua mimpi dan nyatamu
Ku akan menjagamu
Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh
Dik, jangan engkau pergi tinggalkan aku oh…
Dik, ingin aku cinta dan cinta s’lalu
Saat kau tengah terluka
Kala kau tengah gundah
Back to Reff:

Kau akan menjagaku
Di bangun dan tidurku
Di semua mimpi dan nyataku

Kau akan menjagaku
Tuk hidup dan matiku
Tak ingin, tak ingin kau rapuh
Back to Reff:

aarrgghhh stressnyerrrrrrrrrrr..saya dah tak gembira lagi.....

kenape yer..lately..cepat betul nk terasa..cepat betul nak marah orang...i dont like this..tak suka marah2 dan sedey2 cam nih...rasa cam sakit tenat pulak...


i dont feel happy anymore..everything make me stress ..angry...HELLPPPPP...why???


i want my happiness back...all of that has gone..gone with the wind.. tatau la tersangkut kat mana la pulak...adoiiii tapi mmg rasa sangat tak syioookkkk sekali sekarang..kat umah kat ofis semua laaaaa semua cam dah berubah..cam dah tade hati kat sini..kenapa yerr???????

Jealous nyer makkkk..adoiyaiii

" i don't know when i started to feel this way...he is not even my boyfriend..he is somebody i know from work...but why suddenly i miss him..miss everything he do..everything he says..and suddenly i want to know what he do where he goes whom he's seeing....ooomaiggooddd......and the worst part is i even got jealous when he is flirting with others..

got jealous when he texting someone else..on phone with i dont know who...i just realize all that and makes me confused.....nothing makes sense here..HELLOOO...inikah cinta?????....ayoooo nk sebut pun malu...but really...please sombody pinch me???..or slap me so i can get back into reality???."

DO YOU THINK SO???

Entah ?

..gelak tawanya
..senda guraunya
.. lirikan matanya
.. senyumannya
Entah bila aku mula merindui dia
Entah bila aku mula menginginkan dia
Entah bila aku mula mengasihi dia
Semuanya berlaku tanpa ku sedari...
Tiba-tiba aku merindui segala yang ada pada dirinya.

happiness is a journey...

“Being happy doesn’t mean that everything is perfect. It means you’ve decided to look beyond the imperfections.”

True..i agree with tht statement...to me happiness is a journey not a destination...

Secret By The Pierces

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Why do you smile
Like you have told a secret
Now you're telling lies
Cause you're the one to keep it
But no one keeps a secret
No one keeps a secret
Why when we do our darkest deeds
Do we tell?
They burn in our brains
Become a living hell
Cause everyone tells
Everyone tells…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

Look into my eyes
Now you're getting sleepy
Are you hypnotized
By secrets that you're keeping?
I know what you're keeping
I know what you're keeping

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…

[spoken]
Alison?
Yes, Katherine.
I have something I want to tell you, but
you have to promise to never tell anyone.
I promise
Do you swear on your life?
I swear on my life

[end spoken]

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

You swore you'd never tell…
You swore you'd never tell…

Got a secret
Can you keep it?
Swear this one you'll save
Better lock it, in your pocket
Taking this one to the grave
If I show you then I know you
Won't tell what I said
Cause two can keep a secret
If one of the m is dead…
(chorus x 3)

Yes two can keep a secret
If one of us is…. Dead.

...has been deleted???

adoiyaiiii it takes me one whole year to really do this things....for some people it might nampak simple n easy to do...but as for me..it feels like half of me has been deleted...4 years of memory can u imagine how i felt??...but yesterday i put my courage n press the delete button....waarrgghhhhh....sedeyyy nyer...but for what kan..??? dia pun tah igt atau tak lagi...memori kat fon boleh la delete..kat otak ni camner lak nk delete???...huhuhuuhu the only way to do is to install new memory which is way way better than the previous one....

All sms-es has been deleted...

REDblack 11.11.11

You're My Everything by  Santa Esmeralda

Na na na na ... 

You're my everything 

The sun that shines above you makes the blue bird sing 

The stars that twinkle way up in the sky 

Tell me I'm in love, when I kiss your lips 

I feel the rolling thunder to my finger tips 

And all the while my head in a spin 

Deep with in I'm in love 

You're my everything and nothing 

Really matters but the love you bring 

You're my everything 

To see you in the morning with those big brown eyes 

You're my everything 

Forever and the day 

I need you close to me 

You're my everything 

You never have to worry never fear 

For I am near when I hold you tight 

there's nothing that can harm you in the lonely night 

I'll come to you and keep you safe and warm 

Yes, so strong my love 

You're my everything 

I live upon the land and see the sky above 

I'll swim within oceans sweet and warm 

There's no storm my love 

another date to remember....

11.11.11 - I still remember..few years back i was thinking tht i wud want to get married on this beautiful date..not only this date actually ...my dream start from 101010..then i move on to 111111...now its finally coming yet am not even a step closer to a marriage...yeahh dont even mention about tht...i still dont have any particular guy whom i can imagine wud be my groom...hahahhaa

.......................KESIAN kannn...hahhhahhhahaha.....

But then I realize it's just a number. It mean nothing..( actually sedih la jugak kan...)....and for when will be the big day for me...its all in Allah hands...only He knows what is the best for me....

Patut Saya Pergi????

<< satu hari dalam perjalanan >>
kiter tade sape sape kat sini lagi...itu salah satu sebab kiter nk pegi dari sini...my BFF sumua dah kawen...DAH TU SAYA NI SIAPA??? hahah perlu jujur atau tidak???...hahah jawapan selamat ehh awak kawan kiter la..seseorang yang senang kiter luangkan masa together-gether ahakss...lain la kalau awak tu pakwe kiter..opss terlebey sudey   tp x cukup kuat reason utk kiter stay kat sini.huhu..kiter rasa tade life kat sini...[ dua tahun kat sini ..baru first time luahkan rasa kat seseorang ]


TAPI biler patut kiter pergi yer wak?? kalau kiter pergi jer buat keras hati boleh tak?? for the past few months i keep thinking the same question..ala pedulikan jer org lain..


arrghhh awak tolong la kiter wat keputusan..[ rasa cam esok jugak nk pergi tapi i dont know why ..im afraid to take tht deceision...]..ape ehh...what is the feeling yg mcm tak boleh nk letgo...pakwe pun takde. ape ehh...


<<< dari dalam diri >>>
Saya :..kenapa nak pegi?
Kite :...tah la rasa tak de sape2 kat sini..rasa tak bahagia..
Saya :..so ..ape yg buat awak tak pegi lagi..kan ke dah ada
      reason tu...ok ape..pegi ke tempat yg boleh buat awak   
      bahagia.
Kite :..tah la awak...ada satu perasaan yang mcm tak bg kiter 
      pegi.. separuh suh pegi jer...separuh lagi suh stay..kiter 
      pun tak tahu ape
Saya :ape nyer lagi...awk jer boleh buat diri awak bahagia..nape 
      nk fikir pasal org lain..perasaan org lain...
Kite :hurmmmmmmmmmm...tapi bahagia ke kalau kiter pegi??
Saya :..kadangkala perlu ada perubahan untuk awak tgk dan nilai 
      diri awak ..dari perspektif dan persekitran yang lain  
      pula...
Kite :...baiklah..kali ni adalah yang terakhir..keputusan akan 
      diambil dalam tempoh terdekat..yakin nyer dier..






apela yang kiter bebelkan ni yer wak...tak munasarawak langsung...perkara cam ni pun tak leh pikir ke...adoiyaiii...hmm kalau itu yang korang pikir...nak tahu ape jawapan kter??...SUKER HATI KITER LA NI BLOG KITER..SAPE SUH AWK BACE..ni tempat untuk kiter kuah luahkan perasaan..nak luah kan org susah..nk kene jaga amik hati [takkan kambing pulak eheh ]....hahahha peace no war !!!

Raining inside out!!!

Ouuccchhh...it hurts..really...feel like crying...huhuhuh my heart full of dark clouds already...same like the weather outside the window...looks like its gonna rain...ohh my..how can u be so sensitive..i even cannot see his face...huhuhuhuh actually heart...how do u feel??? do u like him that much??

Let It Go

To let go doesn't mean to stop loving and caring, it just that we can't do it for someone else, not to cut ourselves off but just realize that we can’t control others, not enable but just to learn from natural consequences, to admit powerless as the world is not in our hands,[ Allah knows best] not trying to change or blame one another but just to make the most of ourselves, not only to care for but to careabout, not to fix but to be supportive, not to judge but just to allow another to be a human being, not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies, not to be protective but to permit another to face reality, not to deny but to accept facts, not angry, scold, or argue but instead to find out our own shortcomings and correct them, not to adjust everything to our desires, but to take each day as it comes, and to cherish ourselves in it, not to regret the past but to grow and live for the future, just get less fear and to love more.

P/S: …..let go n leave to Allah…wht u can do in the meanwhile …u focus on improving ur life so tht u cud achieve something tht r benefial to others especially d people u love . . .!

sentap kah saye???

sensitif kah saye???? [..tp lately cam slalu jer..adakah sbb putus sudah kasih syg...atau umo ku ini owhh tidak...heheheh.]
tak la sangat..cuma ada masa ada ketika ada keadaan [ cam same jer maksud nyer heheheh ]


slalunye la kan...sensitip ni jadi kalau orang-orang [ ehh bukan kat sawah tu yer ] yang rapat dengan saya...yang bak kata omputih leaving their footprints in my heart hahahahahah .....yang saya ske [ like n love ewahhh ] haaa diorang ni la yang membuatkan saya cepat tersentuh...sensitif..SENTAPP..huhuhu


kalau pakwan  org lain ...ada aku kisah??..hahahaha takde makne nyer nk sentapp ngan tah sesape....!!!!

Shud I Stay or Shud I Go???

SAYA RASA CAM NK BALIK KAMPUNG....bukan balik bercuti..BACK FOR GOOD...??? maybe its time for me to move on..searcing new life n new environment...REALLY...ive been done a lot of thinking on this matter...BUT for what reason..i also dont know..I DONT DARE to take the decision ...huhuhu 

YA Allah...berikan petunjuk kepada ku agar aku dapat membuat keputusan..agar aku tidak tersalah langkah...agar segalanya di berkati oleh MU...

there's a few strong reason tht always lead me to keep thinking shud i BACK FOR GOOD...

i) i dont have anybody here..

    (my bro's n sister have their own life..takkan nk kacau  

    selalu...all MY BFF are married ...beside my officemates , i 

    dont have anybody...)

ii) cost of living..

     ( huuuhhh so high..i dont have savings...my salary ahhh 

     bukan tak bersyukur BUT ..hurmmm siapa yang bekerja di 

     Lembah Klang shud understand what i feel)

iii) my parents...

      diorang tinggal berdua jer at my hometown...when i 

     thinking of this..it be my strongest point!!!!!

THEN...what shud i do???

shud i stay or shud i go................!

Can I prevent myself from falling in love???

HELLPPPP!!!..really need help on this...can i prevent myself?? i tried to think what r the excuses n reasons to help me not to fall in love right now...but i couldn't think ..even for ONE reason..of course the good one..reason that will not make me regret in the future..for this time..this time i have to be very very carefull...i dont want to be hurt again..ITS REALLY HURTS..i know i couldn't predict what will happen in the future. . YA ALLAH..if he's the ONE for me..please show us the way..IF NOT please make this feeling go away...

HELLLOOOOOOO

see tht face...same here..m really PISSED OFF!!!!.. astagfirullahalazim…kurus puasa aku…sumtimes ppl just don’t care ‘bout others……. u just wanna test my level of patience rite…hhhhaaaaahhhhhhh really pissed!! ..u really hv bad attitude n wht is worse u don’t even realize it!!! U always complaining…u hv lots of work..when I asked u said I wouldn’t understand..when I asked u to tell me so tht I can understand, u refused..u said I wouldn’t understand…WTH!!!...u don’t even try to explained to me!!!!! HELLLOOOOO im trying to help u with your  work..don’t u get it???? For your information..i think for past 8 month back u said u hd backdated work n u wanna assistant to help u..u already get it..n for the current situation, there’s not much work for your department..SO WHY STILL HAVE WORK PENDING, PEOPLE ALWAYS COMPLAINT HOW LATE U PROCESS THE DOCUMENT n I don’t get my database yet!!!! NOW tell me what actually your problem is???

Wajah yang dirindui....

Bila time nak puasa dan nak raya, beliaulah orang yang aku sangat nanti-nantikan di kaca televisyen. …… tak sabar nak tunggu pengumuman beliau. …Ramai berdoa "minta-minta lah esok diumumkan raya"..heheheh [ skrg tak lagi berperasaan begitu sbb nyer pengumuman raya tu sekadar syarat..dah mmg sama apa yang tertulis dlm kalender….]

Puasa 1432H / 2011..segalanya baru tiada lagi wajah familiar yang selama ini aku nantikan… Engku Ibrahim, [ beliau dah bersara pada 7 Januari 2011..huhuhu rupa-rupanya, sudah 22 tahun beliau berkhidmat sebagai Penyimpan Mohor Besar Raja-Raja..patut ler seusia sejak aku mula berpuasa…..] …. jasa anda tidak akan kami lupakan. Suara anda, baju melayu anda yang cantik dan pelbagai warna bila keluar [ selalu teka warna baju beliau setiap tahun] di kaca televisyen akan sentiasa aku ingati…

BismillahirRahmanNirrahim...

Assalamualaikum warahmatuallahi wabarakatuh..

Bagi menyempurnakan titah perintah Seri paduka Baginda Yang Dipertuan Agong..

Setelah diperkenankan oleh Duli Yang Malah Mulia Raja..

Maka adalah dengan ini saya mengishtiharkan..

bahawa tarikh bagi mulanya Puasa bagi negeri seluruh Malaysia adalah ditetapkan..pada hari Isnin...

Tempat beliau digantikan oleh Datuk Syed Danial Syed Ahmad..jadi pada yang tak tgk pengumuman malam tadi….inilah orang nyer…

 amacam???...feel sama tak masa Datuk Engku buat pengumuman??

p/s:..biasa laaa amik masa sikit la...nk sesuaikan dgn orang baru !!

5 Tips Lupakan Dia yg Pernah Kita Sayang…

5 Tips Lupakan Dia yg Pernah Kita Sayang

P/s : ...tips-tips tu mmg betul..tp MASA yang akan menentukan segalanyer...